The Passion is not LOST...

Today is the season 4 premiere of LOST. I could pee on myself or jump out of my skin. Oh, when will you come dearest 7 p.m.? Though the end will shortly approach because of the worthy strike of the creative geniuses behind the masterpiece that is LOST, I will savor every moment and cannot wait to see your face. 

An eventful few weeks are ahead. As I partake in new doses of the LOST phenomenon, then head to another more super phenomenon, which is the corporate worship and adoration of Jesus Christ by thousands of 18-25 year olds, known as Passion. Although only a regional event with not as great a magnitude as the international conferences that draw tens of thousands (at least 18,000 when I was privileged to attend), still as powerful and life-changing. I cannot wait to see what God has in store. But, as part of Mayhae, we wait.

Until we meet again. I am late for work.

Be blessed,

Jezz

A well overdue hello...

It's been more than year since I've posted, and so much has happened in those passing days. 

Nathan and I got engaged on October 30, 2007; our wedding is less than six months away. I could never have found a more amazing man. 

Today is January 24. Our band, Mayhae, is set to perform in Cullen Auditorium tonight as finalist in KGNZ's Next to Sign competition. We are blessed to have this opportunity, and no matter what the outcome of this single performance is, the music will go on beyond just today. 

I've said a lot has happened, but I only had a time for a few...

So until we meet again.

Be blessed,

Jezz

Pondering Christmas...

Sometimes I think I secretly despise the Christmas season...
At least that's the thought that came to my head this afternoon as I raced around the mall, dodging people, and most importantly, dodging those awkward conversations with those long lost, perhaps, friends. Every year I think it gets worse for me. Bumping into so-and-so from such-and-such place and frantically searching my mind to come up with an inkling of a memory with which to reminisce...

Of course, I don't really hate the Christmas season...
I love the decorations, the lights...so sparkly. I love the songs, even if at any other time of the year I abhor them. I like the excuse to eat baked goods and candy. I like any excuse to eat those.

But then again, none of that is really what Christmas is all about.

Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Wednesday...

Mondays...
Why do we have the preconceived notion that Mondays are ugly? And, why when something ugly does happen on a Monday we simply blame it ono the day? I used to like Mondays, somewhat like them anyway...but then I started work. Mondays aren't pretty to me now. But, I don't understand why they can't be pretty.

Why I can't take the ugliness of what is perceived as the Monday blues and see it in a different light?

Of course, it's not going to be roses and caramel and chocolate and happy smiling puppies. But it can be, intentionally being nicer to others and not letting the Mondayness of the day get to me...I guess I'll have to wait until next Monday to see what could happen...

It's Tuesday...tomorrow's Wednesday...and LOST...I'm so excited.

And because it is Tuesday, I must get ready to head off into the real world where I will try to smile and catch up on lots and lots of work because my boss is gone.

Be blessed today,
Jezz

I don't just change my socks...

Every morning I:
wake up
crawl into the shower
become clean again
sit at the computer
check my acu mail
check my google mail
then check facebook...
There's always something new on facebook every morning. I'm not just talking about an updated profile or new pictures on my mini-feed, but the basic structure of facebook seems to be ever-changing.

That's kind of like my life right now...The basic structure is ever-changing. I don't know when it all really started, or where to flag the starting point. All I know is change has become a huge domino effect in my life for nearly a year now...one event right after another. It's really hard, really stressful, emotionally straining and heart-wrenching. But at the same time, it's not so hard. It's almost natural...at least most of it. Some of it I can't control, and if I could change things, I would have probably left them the way they were. But other things, the big things, the decisions that I had to consciously make that I agonized over...those...onced the decision was made, they fit. They made sense...and most of all, they don't hurt...they give me peace.

It's hard jumping over these hurdles right now...especially when you're afraid of what may come next. How big will that one be? Can I get over it? Or will fall flat on my face? I hope I can jump higher and run faster now...

Be blessed today...time to get ready for work.
Jezz

Goodbye money...

Last night, I bought a drumset...I like to spend my money, apparently.

That's all I really have to say...or at least time to say...

It's off to work I go.
Be blessed,
Jezz

I've become a real West Texas man...

I went the ACU football game last night. It was odd...maybe just for me. I got free season tickets to all the home games, yay...I just wish I liked football more. I mean, I like it, but it's not the sporting event of my choosing. My seats are right on the 50 yard line and in the midst of alot of old-er people...I'm just a little out of place, but I guess I should get used to sitting with the old folks... :( I don't think I've talked as much in a whole week since I've graduated than I did at the game. It was good for me to get out and see...people. I don't get enough of that. The barren halls of the sixth floor and the silence of my office aren't ideal environments for socializing...

Today is the beginning of the two-day Legends Dove Hunt fundraiser/event for the Children's Miracle Network. In preparation for this rustic event, I've never seen so much camo in my life...but I have learned much about shotguns, because I really needed to know about them. I'm just helping out with the preparation and registration this morning, so I won't have to sacrifice the weekend, which is nice, because I really need a weekend...short weeks are nice, but they really mess up your work schedule...too much to do, not enought time...the story of life.

It's about that time...
Be blessed,
Jezz

Blisters, burrows and blessings...

Today I walked around campus with Nathan. I exercised. That's quite a feat for me, if I do say so myself. In the process, I managed to get a blister on the back of my right heel because my socks were too low. ick. Oh well, at least I got out and conquered the unconquerable...or something like that.

So, work is going well. Lots of work to do...not enough time in the day...the usual corporate mumbo jumbo. I've become a bigger nerd though, that's for sure. But it's okay now, because it's expected and accepted. It's good that I scrutinize kerning and look at the source of websites. I even thought about making my own template for my blog...sad. I've always been a nerd. I guess I'm just taking my nerdiness to an all new high!

Speaking of nerd, I've had to push myself to not be so antisocial lately. (Bad segue, sorry.) It's not that I don't really want to be around people...it's just that I'm lazy and don't want to try...but I do all at the same time. The introvert in me is taking over...or at least trying to. Not that that's a bad thing. I know I just need to get out more...so if it seems like I've blown you off...I'm sorry. I really don't mean to. Unless I do. But you would probably know it if I was.

I've been digging myself into my own little burrow lately. Circumstances, trials and changes are most likely the catalyst. But, it's not the best thing for me to do. I want so badly to break out and be free again. I know I will eventually. But I will walk through the valley, to get to the next mountain top. I am truly blessed to be able to know that.

Be blessed today in all you do,
Jezz

Get this stuff off of me...

Some weeks just hit you hard, like nothing you've ever expected...everything piled up in a nice, neat heap...and messes up virtually everything in your world.

So now I'm buried. Underneath a pile of worries, fears and doubts, you will find me...trying to smile, but it's most likely not working.

So what do I do? I have to realize it's not my world; it's not my call. I can't control the trials that rain on my hapiness parade. Why? It's not my world. So I take it all in, process it...and then I have to decide what to do with it. (This is where God steps in and makes it better.) The processing isn't quite done yet, but on the other side, I know there's beauty within these ashes.

Blessings abound today...stop and see them.
Jezz

Welcome back...

I think I've forgotten that I had a blog...or maybe it was just laziness. I must admit, I miss bloggity blog blogging. And so this morning I make a vow to you, my one and only reader...probably. I will write on...
Starting later today.
Be blessed,
Jezz

Mornings aren't always my best friend...

I don't do mornings well-especially the span of time walking from my car in the far-away parking lot to my sixth-floor office. I start thinking, then it gets sad...lonely. Every morning I go through the shock of growing up all over again. What would I do different if I could go back to high school...or at least college? Could I do it differently? Why am I thinking about this? Looking back neever gets us anywhere...but short of what we could reach ahead.

Time to work...
Be blessed today,
Jezz

I am grown up...

It's been so long since I've posted that I forgot my username and password. I need to fix that.

I finally came to the realization that I am really and truly out of college. It was rough. I guess it never really hit me that I would never have the same experience of going to class, seeing my friends every day and just being "young." Oh well. Makes me sad, but it's okay...life does go on.

Work is doing great! I'd add details, but they'll probably just sound boring and mundane...and I don't want to bore you.

Abilene's starting to look lonely again...let's hope it doesn't get that way.

Be blessed tonight,
Jezz

Finally...an update...

Graduating on Saturday...whoop...
Have my last finals tomorrow...eek...
New LOST tonight...yay...
Time for a group meeting...no comment...

Be blessed,
Jezz

4 8 15 16 23 42...

So I was trying to figure out my multiples of four today because I needed to give myself a timeline for finishing 36 one-page bios by next Friday. I started at four in my head...and it went like this...
4 8 15 16 23 42
??? wait, I thought 36 was in there somewhere. So again:
4 8 15 16 23 42
hmm...curious. Once more:
4 8 15 16 23 42
Man, what's going on. So this time I slowed down and thought about what I was saying. That's when it hit me...

I need help.
btw... 4 x 9 = 36 fyi

Be blessed today,
Jezz

Work...

YAY! I have a big-girl JOB!

oh hermie...

I can never look at Hermie the same again.

Waiting on word from a big-girl job. I want it like I want cake and cookies, which is alot right now. I have some sweet tea that's not really sweet, and it's not hitting the spot.

waiting for 11 a.m.

be blessed,
jezz

Dust...

The onslaught of gusty West Texas winds blowing on the dry and thirsty land has brought the heinous red dirt sky to Abilene. It's sickening. Grits of dust and dirth find a niche between your teeth; breathing clean air is not an option. Where's my oxygen tank?

Hermie is cute...

Left the house early to buy the Passion: Everything Glorious cd at Wal-mart.
Found out that iTunes calls the album Everyone Glorious.
Was taken back to Nashville with the songs...but without the sickness.
The sickness reminds me of LOST.
Everything reminds me of LOST.
Hermie the Caterpillar has found a home on my desk :)
Really wanna go to Six Flags on June 24 to see Switchfoot and Mutemath.
Watched baseball yesterday.
The Braves won :) barely.
Found out about a job opening at Hendrick.
Need to finish cover letter for the job.
History test today...haven't been in a class for a week.
Lots of homework on my head.
Trying not to get stressed out.
Ordered my graduation invitations yesterday.
Picking up my graduation invitations today.
Oh my gosh, I'm graduating.
Listening to Jay and Jack...again.
Playing at a D-Now this weekend at UBC.
Finishing my Chai tea latte.
Back to the cover letter writing.



Be blessed,
Jezz

Stuff...

Back from band tour.
Ate lots of food.
Watched LOST as soon as I got home.
Applied for two jobs before I left.
Catching up on Jay and Jack...loving it!
Still need to apply for at least two more jobs.
Nathan got a job...yay!
Finally having a band officer meeting today...omg.
Made some prototype invites for band banquet.
Had to cover my eyes while skipping through the LOST spoilers.
Stashing a banana in the office.
Changed my mind: eating banana.
Going to class now....
good day!
Jezz

You guys got any milk...

Hi. My name is Jesiree, and I'm a LOST-aholic.

Thank you.